and what a trip it was!ย ๐ While every year has its ups and downs, I can genuinely look back on this past year of my life and smile! ๐ย 38 was a GOOD year for me and my feelings of excitement and optimism going into my 39th year of life have more than pleasantly surprised me.ย For someone who has been operating with a higher than normal level of anxiety for years now, I have this new found sense of calm that is both a little foreign and very refreshing at the same time!ย Not to be cliche, but I feel like a weight has been lifted off me.ย Like I can take a deep breath for the first time in a very long time.ย Like I am no longer just surviving, I am starting to thrive!
Is this was “normal” people feel like?ย I don’t know if there is such a thing as normal these days, but I wonder if this is what not living under the veil of anxiety and imminent panic everyday feels like?ย Coming out the other side of being mentally and physically unhealthy for many years now, I don’t even think I truly realized how weighed down I had been feeling and for just how long.ย A year into getting healthy and I kinda feel like my teenage self again!ย Remember being a teenager?ย Being filled with a cocky sense of invincibility that you could do or be anything you wanted.ย That feeling of having the world at your fingertips….yep that is the feeling that is coming over me as I think about all the things I want to accomplish this year!
Being optimistic going into a new year is in itself a new sensation for me!ย I wouldn’t say that I am pessimistic by nature, more of a realist if I had to label myself, but this is the first year that I am really excited to see what the next twelve months are going to hold.ย I feel like I am back in control of my life and there really is no limit to what I can do now and what direction I can take it.ย I wanted to talk about these new feelings because this is yet another great example of how getting myself physically back in shape has done wonders for so much more than just my waist line!
In sitting down to write this post it dawned on me that it has been many, many weeks if not months (long enough that I can’t even remember when the last time was exactly) since I had a panic attack!ย ๐ฎย That is pretty amazing considering last year at this time I was having several a week!!ย This journey never ceases to amaze me guys!ย The past couple months I was so focused on the physical progress I was making that I hadn’t been paying much attention to how much better mentally I was doing.ย Coming into the new year as well as celebrating my birthday yesterday has naturally led me to reflect back on the past year as well as look forward to the new one and you know what?ย Looking in both directions fills me with excitement…a kid in a candy store kinda excitement!ย I am both proud of what I have accomplished and excited to see how much more I can achieve.
You guys, getting in shape, starting on a health and wellness journey, deciding to eat better, and/or even just starting to prioritize yourself a little more is so worth it.ย I physically lost some weight over the past year but I think even more remarkable is what I have gained.ย I gained my confidence back.ย I am proud of myself for the first time in a long time.ย I am more optimistic than I have been in years.ย I found my breath.ย I feel like I am in control of my life for the first time in a long, long time.ย Things are not just happening to me anymore, I am making them happen the way I want them to and this is all because I made one decision a year ago to get my butt back into shape.ย I had no idea then what that decision would mean, or just how significant it would become, but I am so thankful that I got tired enough of myself and my own excuses to commit to making it happen.
It started out for me with just a simple desire to lose a few pounds.ย That was all I made up my mind to do a year ago.ย It has since transformed into an entirely new lifestyle that I am so, so in love with.ย I have taken back control of both my body and mind.ย I can’t think of one aspect of my life that has not been improved by being on this journey. I wake up every day now looking forward to continuing on this path and making more and more progress.ย I have been amazed at how my body has responded thus far and possibly even more astonished at how much my mental health has improved.
So in the spirit of the new year, and new beginnings and the blank book we have in front of us,ย lets write the best chapters yet!ย Make one decision today that you will look back on this time next year and be abundantly thankful to yourself for making.ย Start small, swap out that soda you drink at lunch for a glass of water, incorporate a 30 minute walk into your daily routine a few times a week, go get that physical you have been putting off to get a baseline idea of your overall health.ย Just pick one thing and build on it over the course of this year.ย Take a few baby steps today that your future self with thank you for.ย You are worth it!!!
Happy New Year to all of you! ๐ Lets make it a great one!!ย Some pics below from how I spent my day yesterday. Spoiler alert: I ate a lot!! ๐๐ฎ๐
xoxoxo,
Beth
Thanks for sharing. A success story helps anyone out there trying to get the motivation to change their lives for the good. It’s hard but with real examples to read about, it will give someone that extra push to get going!
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Im hoping so! I hope my struggles can help someone else who is also struggling the same way I was. It is so doable!! Thanks for reading and happy new year!! ๐
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That’s awesome. I too suffer from anxiety. Happy New Year! Keep up the good work on making yourself a better person.
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Thank you for reading and the support! Keeping fighting that good fight with your anxiety…I know it’s a tough one but there is light at the end of the tunnel! Happiest of new years to you as well!! ๐
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Thank you! Happy New Year!! ๐
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Nice read. Happy New Year!
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Thank you! Happiest of New Years to you as well!! ๐
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Really enjoyed reading this! So inspirational! ๐
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Thank you so much! I really appreciate it! ๐
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Congratulations on how far you’ve come, sounds like an amazing journey. I know I always feel so much better psychologically when I’m regular exercising and living more healthily, and I agree that’s probably more valuable than the physical benefits. Happy New Year, hope 2019 is a good one for you ๐
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Thank you so much for reading and the support! I can’t wait to see where 2019 takes us all! Happy New Year!! โจ๐
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Loved it!! Happy New Year!! This journey in life is so amazing!!! Staying positive attracts positive. ๐
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Thank you so much for reading and for the support! Totally agree with you and going to make 2019 nothing but positive!! Happy New Year!! ๐โจ
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Suggestion… read the book “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne. It’s a life changer.
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Nice to hear your starting the year right. Hope it continues through out. Stay fit, stay blessed!!!!
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Thank you so much for reading and the kind words! I hope 2019 is great for all of us! ๐โจ
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I really enjoyed reading this. It was so inspirational, and motivational. I have been feeling anxious lately which is unusual for me as I am going through big changes. So it was nice to read that you have come out of the other side of it. Keep up the good work. You are glowing so it is obviously working ๐ Thanks for inspiring me
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Thank you so much for reading and the kind words! I hope all the big changes in your life are positive ones! No matter what any change can be stressful but keep your head up and sneak in a workout if you can! ๐ Hoping 2019 is a great year for both of us!
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Inspirational words Beth. Thank you for sharing.
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Love your success story! Such an inspiration to all who struggle with anxiety. Blessings this new year!
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Thank you so much for reading and the kind words! I hope my struggles can at least help one other person out there know it’s not hopeless!
Happy New Year!! โจ๐
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Happy New Year to you as well!
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Excellent points and insight Beth. I trust your 2019 will be rewarding, peaceful, joyful, safe and blessed. ๐
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Great post. You nailed it. I like being reminded that by taking control of our health, we gain control of all the other parts of life๐
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Thank you so much for reading and the support! Here’s to a happy and healthy new year! ๐โจ
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So inspirational! Well done on getting through mental health issues, it’s such a hard thing to do and I still struggle myself. It’s so inspiring to hear how well you’re doing now and from the bottom of my heart i really do wish you all the best for 2019! ๐
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Thank you so so much for reading and the support!! I hope 2019 is a happy and healthy year for all of us! Love your site btw! โจ๐๐
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Me too gal, thank you so much ๐๐
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Love this post – keep rocking! You’ve earned all the good feelings and success!
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Thank you girl!! I so appreciate you reading and the support! ๐๐
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Way to go! Sounds like you had a wonderful year!
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It was pretty great…hoping 2019 is a healthy and happy one for all of us! Thank you for reading and the support! ๐๐
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Happy Birthday Beth! I’m glad you’re doing so well. It’s inspiring. As you said, let’s write the best chapters!!!
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Thank you and Happy New Year to you! I appreciate you reading and the kind words! ๐
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Amazing!! Very well written
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Thank you for reading and the support! ๐
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Doing it right now! Looks great!!
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Thanks Dear!! You are from which city.?
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