A lot. I ate a lot! 😂 In my defense, however, I was still riding out the birthday week festivities so that contributed to the gluttony a bit. After walking into work yesterday and exchanging the usual, “How was your weekend” convos with the coworkers it dawned on me that I spent most of my weekend eating! This caused me to take a look back at the pics I took over the weekend to see how many of them contained food…the verdict was just about all of them were food related snaps with the exception of a handful that were of my furbabies because lets face it I am a crazy dog mom who probably needs an intervention when it comes to taking pictures of my furry friends (who also interesting enough have food names, Frank and Bean). 🐶😏🐶
Although I did indulge a bit this weekend, I still stayed on track as far as my workouts went. I got good sweat sessions in on both Friday and Saturday. Friday was AAA (Arms, Abs and A$$) and Saturday was a cardio core day. I took a rest day Sunday because my body was telling me I needed one badly. I was sore, a bit tired, and my shoulder has been bothering me for about a week now so I decided to just do some light stretching and yoga in the morning and take it easy the rest of the day.
So here’s why I wanted to talk about how much I ate. A large part of this journey to find the healthiest me possible has to do with forming a friendly, positive relationship with food. For most of my twenties and a good part of my thirties I starved myself, only ate certain very low calorie, low fat foods and just generally treated food like the enemy when I wanted to slim down. I would beat myself up if I felt I overate. I would barely eat anything at all one day if I thought I had eaten too much the day before. I would even avoid certain social situations where I knew eating particularly “unhealthy” foods would be involved. My idea of being healthy in those days was directly tied to a number on the scale. And while I was able to get very thin when I wanted to, it was extremely unhealthy and of course not sustainable. The story usually went I would starve myself thin, feel terrible, usually get sick, give up on the diet and then pack back on the weight only to have the whole cycle start again.
In thinking about all the delicious food I ate over the weekend I suddenly realized that I was reminiscing about it with a smile on my face. I’m not sitting here today panicking or berating myself for indulging, or planning a starvation diet for the rest of the week. I enjoyed myself and do not even feel a little guilty about it. This is a huge win you guys! My relationship with food has come a long way in the past year to a point where I think it might be bordering on “healthy” for the first time in decades. 😮
I know one weekend of indulging a little more than I normally would will not derail all my progress. I also know that I will get right back on track this week with what has become my normal eating habits because I am committed to this lifestyle above all else. This is not a fad for me or a temporary diet until I fit into a certain size pants anymore. It is a way of life that I plan on sticking with and only improving upon moving forward. Food is no longer the enemy for me and this weekend solidified that. I was able to enjoy all the meals out at my favorite restaurants, the home-cooked spread my mom made for me on Saturday and even two different birthday cakes that I was lucky enough to receive complete with more candles than I would like to admit to!
I am happier, healthier and really starting to enjoy life like I should have been all this time. I can look forward to birthdays, holidays and meals out with friends and family without the time being overshadowed my by obsession with how many calories I am about to consume. I can celebrate these happy occasions now without feeling guilty, beating myself up or bracing for a that spiral where I start eating everything in sight again because I fell off the diet wagon. I am secure in my commitment to doing the best I can for both my physical and mental health and well-being and because of this I know will stay true to this journey I am on to become the best version of Beth. See below for some of the amazing food I ENJOYED over the weekend….🤤